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Tuesday, July 31, 2007
tonight, i can go insane. the walls are caving in. and the dim light at my left grows dimmer and dimmer.
and what has happened to me? really, seriously. what has happened? there's one point in time that i just had to lose it. i just had to lose everything. and yet i am regaining nothing. and so how does anything suffice? they won't. thing don't turn out the way they're supposed and the world usually turns around. you see the backs of te whole world and everything could just blow up right now. and no. yes, no. it always has been a no. and whether i am getting tired or not of all that's happening. it doesn't matter. does anything matter at this point? at this specific time? how should i comprehend anything that apparently goes about my space right now. the buzzing sound of the fan. the silence that runs about the whole house. an emptiness. a vast emptiness. quite literally actually. and nothing is funny. or should there be? i really don't know.
and what was that all about? oh nothing really. just gibberish.
damn. i need o hear the sound that would resucitate me. maybe a few pounds here and there. drumsticks and all. maybe that can make my day.
whew. i'm glad that's over.
"there is a wall that ruuuns right through me"- kreuzberg, bloc party
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